Showing posts from July, 2013


About 2 months ago I started developing headaches more often than normal for me.  And those headaches became a real hindrance to my existence.  I just plain felt horrible as well as struggling to read, work on the computer (which is my job!) and even focus. 
Time for a Doctor visit.  I already knew THAT time had approached.  It was time to admit I needed bi-focals.  After it was confirmed, I then discovered that my headaches were more than my eyes getting "old".  In fact, without my contacts in or wearing my glasses that I had been prescribed since the age of 8, I could read close-up fine.  I just had to hold it about 2 inches from my face.
The problem was that my eyes were working so hard to focus and in effect my vision had become more blurry.  They needed the right tools.  After going through a variety of options over the last couple of weeks, I have found a pair of contacts that allow me to see clearly.  There has been some adjustments but whether I am on the computer,…

in the Middle

some would call that stuck
others would say it's being right at the heart of it

For me, this middle has been a struggle.  A friend sent me birthday wishes back in January, welcoming me to "the heart of middle age".  45.   The other day, I felt more stuck than at the heart of anything.  Disappointment, weariness and sadness swept over me and hung like a lingering storm front.
Not everything has gone as planned. In fact, now as I ponder on it, nothing has.
BUT God.  At every twist in my story, He has been what has sustained me.

So, here I am in the middle; of middle age, of the summer, of life. 

I am working and pushing thru this challenge, this hurt, theses struggles.  It's what's making me real.  My faith REAL.

A faith that is undeniable.  Not because of what other's have experienced or stories read from long ago.  But MY STORY. 
The one I am writing everyday.  Even in my choice as to how I view this middle I find myself in.

May I see everyday as the Heart …