When you have so many words in your head that you don’t know how to start- that means you are not writing it down enough! I enjoy writing but don’t have my own computer to write on so I have to sneak time in……
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I put a pictorial on my facebook page that gives you a great look at our time together. We laughed, played, ate lots, hiked, swam, watched movies, built fires, roasted marshmallows, had great conversations and most importantly we prayed together.
Teaching our children to have faith in the unseen is very important but a hard lesson to pass on.
I think back over the last year (and I know it isn’t the end of the year yet but I am ahead for once!!) and wonder- what is the world is going on here?? You might be too. There has been job loss, (and still not a job) huge disappointments, hurt, frustrations and far too many bumps and bruises along the way to count. In fact, it just plain has been a really tough year!
I have questioned God more this year than I think any other time in my life. Some things just don’t make sense, don’t add up.
Today in my God time I went back to a passage of scripture that I studied earlier this year. Psalm 66. I go back there often. And in verse 5 it says- Come and see what God has done…. And then it goes on to describe the parting the of sea…etc. I put my book down and pondered – what has God done this year? Kept us going, we still have a house, fed, health. OK. But God knows I have been praying for His direction in my life, for the church, and some other un-named decisions that here we are with NO ANSWERS! Frustrating, really. I mean come on God, how long are you going to hold out here???
But God tapped me on the shoulder and it occurred to be that I do have a short memory- I had only thought back a year.
I then allowed my mind and heart to search back to times when I knew God really moved, when I had a real sense of direction and clarity. I could think of 2 distinct times-
1998- when He brought us to
2004- when He open our hearts up to start a church
So 2010- what will it be? I see a 6 year pattern!! ;) Honestly, I don’t know if the 6 years mean anything but what I did decide today and has become very apparent to me is that we are in the same position we were back in ’98 or ’04 or really the year or so before the even occurred. A crisis point. A time when we knew something was up but we didn't have the game plan yet. We had to just trust that God would show us the next steps to take when it was time to take them. God made it VERY clear then and I must hold on to and have faith to know He will provide clarity this time.
I think I forget the “refining” that comes before something “big” is going to happen. The preparation time. The growing – and sometimes painful time. Not the stuff we really want to remember. We like the fun parts- when God shows up- miracles happen- light shines on the situation....etc.
Refining----That is what the last year or so have been.
When you begin to look at it that way- changes everything...at least your attitude and outlook. God provides, He ALWAYS comes through. I know- I have seen it happen.
Shout joyfully to God, all the earth; Sing the glory of His name; Make His praise glorious.
Say to God, "How awesome are Your works! Because of the greatness of Your power Your enemies will give feigned obedience to You.
All the earth will worship You, And will sing praises to You; They will sing praises to Your name."
Come and see the works of God, Who is, awesome in His deeds toward the sons of men. He turned the sea into dry land; They passed through the river on foot; There let us rejoice in Him!
Who keeps us in life and does not allow our feet to slip.
For You have tried us, O God; You have refined us as silver is refined.
You brought us into the net; You laid an oppressive burden upon our loins.
You made men ride over our head, We went through fire and through water,
Yet You brought us out into a place of abundance.